I'll be up, up and away.

So, as hard as it is to say, another one bites the dust. I had high hopes, but yet again, I'm alone again. This one is bound to be less painful, it played it course and I was at peace with my decision. I'll miss you and your family a lot. I'll hold on to the friendship that I want to have with you at some point, I hope the biterness doesnt get to you first. 

What went wrong? Continually feeling crazy for expecting more out of a relationship that started off so good, is what went wrong. I want a love thats crazier, and out of this world. It began that way, then it just started getting hard. Its like he got too comfortable. I dont even know. I continually had a mental battle with myself in wanting to make it work verses not feeling like I was being treated the way I should... I know when you love someone its not all about you. you make sacrifices, you learn to hurt everyonce and a while, for the greater good. You forget your ego and realize the reason you're with this person, is because you WANT to be with them. I still want to be with him, but the problem is I didn't feel this was mutual close to the end. All I'll hold on to is the final words he said to me "you're my first love, I want you to always be in my life" and so I will be. I miss you b, i hope you dont do anything stupid trying to get over this. Maybe one day, down the road if you feel like you want me again. see a few other people, figure out if i am what you want, we can work it out. i hope and pray that i will never loose you completely, but ever since i ended it, i wont lie, im a thousand times happier.

i miss you, i hope your okay, im sorry it ended.