THANKFUL.

So I know I spit out alot of depressing blog posts, but the depressing thoughts are the ones that have the most impact on me. DONT GET ME WRONG, Im so thankful for so much. I look back at where my life was headed 5 years ago and I realize how lucky I am to belong to the amazing church family I have. not to mention my home family too. thankful means you realize what you have thats amazing in your life. The friendships I have, even though they bring me hell alot of the time, I wouldnt give for anything. Becky, Savannah, Hill, Rhianna, Paula, Nicky, Jenna, Joryli, Esther, Rebekah, Sterling and whoever else if your reading this, thankyou so much for being my shoulder to cry on and my rock. I needed you and you were there, always. I know how lucky I am to have you all and I dont tell you enough.

Why do people change...? People change because OTHER PEOPLE have an impact on them. You all have changed me into someone I like. I like who I've become and you and many other have alot to do with that. So happy I get to do life you all by my side.

Its over.

Theres some sort of peace that comes with being hurt to the point you cant hurt anymore. You've done probably the worst you can to me, knock on wood. Theres nothing more you can do that would make my heart hurt more, no more damage you could do. In the end, I'm better then both of you. Time to get better now.

"life" is a 4 letter word.

I've come to realize, that if you find life easy, its because you live it based completely on yourself. Life is easy when you dont take other peoples lives into account. The reason dealing with other peoples problems is so draining is because YOU cant do anything to change them. The only thing we can change in life is the way we choose to see things.