1992-2012

There are some days that give significance to human life. Today was one of those days. Sometimes losing a life gives significance to lives as ironic and confusing as that may sound. My Opa Jake, 82 years old, passed away. 

I first want to pledge that without this man, nothing would be the same. We have a lot to owe to this man. But let me tell you why it gives significance.

As I watched my opa take his last breaths today I couldnt help but think the simple thought that he was going to a better place. I think we forget to think about heaven until we know someone on their death bed, or we ourselves are on a death bed. I feel completely sure that my Opa went to heaven and I also feel that if I was to die today, I would go to heaven too. Knowing there is a heaven, gives you a peace after loosing a love one unlike any other. As the pastor said today, he had a simple trust in God and he was at peace with his life. 

I want to pay tribute to my Opa Jake in something as simple as this blog post. I love you Opa. Forever in our hearts.

1929-2012

damn right.

So here I am, sitting on facebook when I see my friend Gailey, and we start talking.

she instinctively asked, how me and my boyfriend are.  so I tell her its great, and that I'm so in love. and that I also hate saying that to a lot of people because I know their first thought is "what do you know?" I've always been choked when people think its a joke that teenagers can be in love. we're either naive or just plain stupid to think we even know what love is. well I tell her, no, this is nuts what me and this boy have, he's not just some boy.

so she replies, no I don't think we're naive to love at a young age, she says, I think young love is the hardest of all because really, its the most dangerous time in your life to love, because we're still growing up.

then I realized she was SO right. this is why its so scary to fall for someone. you can follow your dream, or you can follow your love. usually you can't do both and have it work out so smoothly. I just realized today that, when you love at a young age, your more foolish then ever. maybe its the fact that we're foolish that makes love the greatest when your young. maybe that's why it feels so passionate. because in the end, when your young, your ignorant. you love passionately and regretlessly. you love like there's no tomorrow and you don't care who's watching. maybe this is why we always remember the first few we ever had, because although they might've been the most foolish, unrealistic mistakes, its because we loved like we'd never been hurt. which in truth, we probably hadn't. I've come to the realization that, when you love someone, the only way it'll ever work, is if you truely care more about being with them, then anything else.

every once in a while when I come across something like this. I just want to write it down. I want these thoughts to be held in time somewhere, even if its on a stupid blog no one reads.


p.s. I love this guy. for realz.